Does everyone find love....are we all guaranteed to find that perfect match?
Love…. it’s a word guys, just a word! Well that’s all it’s ever been for me, I’m yet to experience it yet, yet to fall for it. Don’t get me wrong family is everything, I love my family and friends. But its that love from a significant other that really means something and I know you critics out there will say you don’t need love, you don’t need no man. Which in the spiritual sense is true, its important to be independent and your own person. But its also important to grow with someone else. I feel like I’ve reached that point in my life where I crave it. Is it just me that struggles to find someone, there are the girls that go from one guy to the next and I’m just sitting over here waiting for one. Okay waiting isn’t the right word; don’t think I’m not putting myself out there. Plenty of my friends are guys and I’m out socialising enough that I can’t blame not having anyone because I’m an old recluse. So then why am I still single?
There is one thing I absolutely hate. When a guy says why are you still single? I was on a date a few months ago with this guy; we’ll call him Liam. Liam and I see a movie and end up talking for hours after covering literally every topic under the sun. Eventually get talking about our ex’s and the past, of course my history can be summed up in a few short words. Next thing Liam says I don’t understand why you are alone, surely there must be guys coming after you all the time. As sweet his enduring comment was surely ment to be, it fuels me with frustration. Yeas I’m single and no sorry that line of guys doesn’t exist.
Pressure!! Does anyone else get the pressure from family?!? Do you have a boyfriend? Are you seeing anyone? How old are….shouldn’t you have a boyfriend? Im soo sick of these questions. Every single time I see my grandmother she asks me again and again. No sorry the answer has been NO since I was sixteen and 4 years later the answer hasn’t changed!
And from what I can tell it's not going to anytime soon! Its like thank you for that reminder, of my single road to solitude. Honestly my family must think there is something wrong with me (trust me I’m starting to believe it myself). Okay I’m definitely venting and being over dramatic here but…why can’t I find someone. It’s soo much easier for guys I swear all you have to do is pick a chick you like and more likely than not, let her know how you feel and the odds are it will work out!! I have honestly never had a guy I genuinely liked feel the same way about me?!? So there begs the question…seriously, is there something wrong with me?
I promise I’m not an eternal pessimist here…just clearly having one of those days when being single is harder than not. I’m sure there is someone out there just waiting, that’s what we’re constantly told right. But believing and holding onto nothing but a notion is harder than it sounds. The thought that someone out there will love you no matter what is bullshit. The reality is, there is no perfect guy because nobody is perfect, so a relationship no matter what is going to take work, it wont be easy. But I’m ready. I’m waiting. Where are you?
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